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I am originally from India. I am settled in United States since 1969. I love mathematics, philosophy and clarity in thinking.

The Basic Inconsistency

When looking, one may become aware of some sort of disharmony, or a nagging feeling that something is amiss. One knows that there is something awry, but just can’t put one’s finger on it. Or, there is something that simply does not make sense. This is inconsistency.

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BASIC INCONSISTENCY

The basic inconsistency would exist when a person continually doubts his opinions and judgments, and so easily accepts the opinion and judgment of others. He then loses his freedom to the degree he DEPENDS on the opinions and judgments of another. Furthermore, he loses his freedom entirely when he starts to look THROUGH filters made up of opinions and judgments of others.

The basic inconsistency is the inability to look for oneself.

Such a person has a fear of looking and experiencing things for himself. This fear may come about when a person has been made wrong forcefully by another, or when he has been overwhelmed by general agreement against him. Such a person would not be able to function effectively in life. He would often suffer from a sense of inadequacy.

Please note that these opinions/judgments can be about oneself, which also make one feel smaller, such as.

  • “I am quite stupid.”
  • “I am not a good student.”
  • “I do not know how to talk sensibly.”
  • “I cannot speak in front of people.”

Once one fully understands how another person’s opinion or judgment came about, then one can make up one’s own mind about it. One is then no longer depending on another’s opinion/judgment. One is free to look and think for oneself.

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REMEDY

However, this basic inconsistency may be resolved gradually as follows:

  1. Do not suppress any feeling of inadequacy that arises. Examine it thoroughly at the first chance you get.

  2. Look at the pictures that accompany this feeling. Don’t push them away. 

  3. Dive into feelings and emotions that arise, and experience them fully. Do not resist them.

  4. Acknowledge all thoughts that come up. Allow yourself to become aware of them non-judgmentally. 

  5. Continue looking without expecting anything (see The Mechanics of Looking)

Sooner or later the person will start becoming aware of the source of the opinions and judgments that he is using. He will also become aware of the occasions when he first accepted them.

This is what he should do:

(A) If that opinion/judgment came from another person, he should accept that person as the source of that opinion/judgment, and then look at how he responded to that opinion/judgment when he first received it.

(B) If the source of that opinion/judgment cannot be located then the person should simply accept that opinion/judgment as his own, and make sure he fully understands how he came up with it.

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SUMMARY

This basic inconsistency should be addressed as a priority, whenever and wherever it arises. As this inconsistency is handled, a person will then be able to look from his own viewpoint, and be able to address other inconsistencies more rapidly. 

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Helping Somebody with KHTK Looking

October 3, 2013: This essay has been superseded by: Helping Somebody in Need

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All of us encounter situations when somebody is really hurting and our heart goes out to them. We wonder how we can help them most optimally.  Here are some of my thoughts on this subject.

  1. Assess your own ability to help. Extend your help only when you sincerely feel that you can help that person.

  2. As your first action, get into a sincere communication with the person. Be a good listener. Listen carefully to what the person is telling you, without interrupting. Acknowledge appropriately so the person knows he or she is being listened to.

  3. Do not offer any advice. Do not comment on what the person is telling you. If the person asks for advice simply provide him with your honest experience in a similar area, but also tell him that it may or may not apply to his or her situation.

  4. If the person asks any questions then answer as honestly as you can in a manner, which encourages the person to look more closely at his or her situation.

  5. Introduce the person to KHTK principles. Explain that resolution comes rapidly when one looks non-judgmentally and without resistance, with enough patience.

  6. Set up a time and place, and go over the following issues with the person: MINDFULNESS and MORE ON MINDFULNESS.

  7. Have the person start with KHTK EXERCISE SET 1. Let him/her first look with eyes open, and then continue looking with eyes closed. Be there with the person to answer any questions.

  8. Please note that the contents of what one looks at are individual and private to the person. These contents need not be discussed except in broad terms. What may be discussed are the mechanics of Looking, and any questions that arise during the process of Looking.

  9. When listening to a question, notice the area that the person has attention on and the “inconsistency” indicated by the question. You may gently discuss the question to flush out the inconsistency if not clear. You may ask, “Is there something that does not make sense, or seems a bit off?”

  10. As you discuss, have the person take time to look at the “inconsistency” using KHTK principles. Do not suggest anything. Never ask for any details. Let the person determine what to tell you.

  11. When the inconsistency becomes obvious to the person, he or she will become calm. His or her attention will be freed up from that area under question. Realize at that point that you have helped the person.

  12. Let the person decide whether to continue or to end that practice session. Be there to support him/her as long as needed.

  13. Encourage the person to read up on all KHTK issues. The person may now practice “Looking” on his/her own. Assist him/her, as needed, with future practice sessions as laid out above.

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Brilliant Teacher with a large heart!

Interview Date: Fri, 9 Apr 2010 16:47:21 +0530

He trains India’s poorest students for the IIT His father, a post office clerk in Bihar, couldn’t afford private schooling for his children. So, Anand Kumar studied at a Hindi medium government school where, at an early age, he fell in love with mathematics. During graduation, he submitted papers on Numbers Theory that were published in UK’s Mathematical Spectrum and The Mathematical Gazette.

He was accepted by Cambridge University and was close to realizing his dream of becoming a mathematician, when his father suddenly passed away. The household income dwindled and Kumar and his mother made papad, which he sold door-to-door in the evenings, while writing mathematical theory in the daytime.

Then one day, a well-wisher suggested Kumar teach maths. In 1995, at the age of 22, he rented a classroom for Rs 500 [$10] a month and started teaching. In one year’s time, the strength of his classroom went from two to 36. Today, his study center Ramanujan School of Mathematics is renowned, the world over. In an interview with Sumita Vaid Dixit, he talks (in chaste Hindi) about Indian education, revolution and his dream.

Why did you start Super 30?

Within three years we had nearly 500 students. Although the fee was nominal — Rs 1,500 [$30] a year — some poor students could not pay. Once, a boy came to me and said that he wanted to study but could only pay after his father, a poor farmer, had harvested potatoes. In Bihar, we call it ‘aloo ukharna’.

I didn’t want to take away the boy’s only hope of changing his life because he couldn’t pay. That’s when I decided that I will form a group of 30 bright students, all from poor families, provide them with board and lodging and prepare them for IIT. This group was called Super 30. My brother Pranav Kumar, a violinist by profession, manages the institute, while my mother cooks for the students. In the last seven years, 182 students out of 210 have made it to different IITs of the country. And for the last two years, all 30 students of Super 30 have made it to IIT. Parents of some students are bricklayers some work as domestic help. Now many of our students are working in Europe and the US.

What is it about your teaching methods that help students get through to IIT?

This success is a combination of three factors. My students have junoon (passion), a fire in them to achieve. Two, our teaching approach is different. I use multimedia slides to make a little story with characters to explain maths concepts. Three, we take tests every day. Well, in a nutshell, we teach our students the how and why! That’s all.

But how do you run the place with the little fee you charge the other students?

I didn’t start the place to make money. There are many coaching institutes in Patna for the rich, but none for the poor. NRIs (non-resident Indians) come to me with offers of help, but I wanted to prove that much can be achieved with fewer resources.

Have you been able to prove that?

I think I have. There are far too many students coming to us, more than what we can take. And this has annoyed many coaching institutes. As you would know, many of the institutes here are run by criminals. I have received death threats, one of my non-teaching staff was stabbed, once they even tried to blow me away with a crude bomb, but I escaped unhurt. I move around with two security guards armed with machines guns.

Does the sight of security guards scare away children or parents?

(Laughs) Children in Bihar are familiar with the criminal activities here. It doesn’t scare them.

Don’t you get scared your life may be at stake?

I am doing this for society. Yes, mobility is restricted and I get frustrated at times, but it’s okay. I get my strength from these kids. But over the past few years, the crime rate has come down and the police support me. Besides, if I get scared how will the others join me in creating a revolution?

What kind of revolution?

Making education accessible to every poor child in India. I wish the kids I have taught come back to their hometowns and do something for their people, their village. At times, it hurts to see that some forget about giving back to the society. But there’s another kind of kranti (revolution) taking place. Earlier when a peon used to work at an IAS officer’s residence, he hoped that when his own son became a peon, the officer would treat him well. Today, the peon who works at the IAS officer’s house wants his son to become an IAS officer, not a peon. That’s kranti! We mustn’t forget the sacrifice and hardships parents go through just to make sure their children live better lives, their children go to schools.

Would the HRD minister’s proposals bring about a change?

Kapil Sibalji thinks that by changing the syllabus or introducing a grading system, education will improve. The system will not change like this. Change will come when teachers have the passion to teach. Jab unme junoon hoga! [When they’ll feel the passion] For that teachers should be paid well. It’s ironical that while parents want their children to have great teachers, they don’t want their children to become teachers! The policymakers’ idea of education is limited to Delhi and the NCR region. They have no clue of the positions of schools in Bihar or Uttar Pradesh many schools don’t have roofs here. And suggesting 80 per cent as cut-off marks for the IIT entrance exam is ridiculous. You cannot apply this to local boards or to students in villages. There cannot to be true development until the villages of India are also a part of the development process. Bharat ki atman gaon mein bassi hain (the spirit of this nation resides in the villages).

Then what’s the way forward?

We need two syllabi: one for students with an ordinary intellect and one for students with extraordinary intellect. There are those who can do very well in jobs and there are those who can excel in research, and the first six years of schooling are good enough to evaluate a student’s potential. This method is followed by China and Russia. Do you know that China has topped 15 times in the past 22 years in the International Mathematical Olympiad? In times to come the top researches and scientists will come from China. So we have to think of novel ways of encouraging our students to get into research. Why hasn’t India produced Nobel winners in a long time? The ones that have are those who left this country to pursue their research elsewhere.

And, what are your future plans?

I want to extend my program to students of Class 5 and 6 as many gifted children fade away before they reach class 10. Many leave school to sell vegetables or work at tea stalls. I want to catch them young. So, now I’m thinking of setting up a chain of free schools across the country, with free board and lodging facilities, where children can study from Class 5 to up to Class 12 and where they are prepared not just for IIT but Olympiad tests in mathematics, physics and chemistry.

But your dream of going to Cambridge still remains unfulfilled?

When those eyes full of hope look at me, the respect and pleasure I get seeing my students being placed in large organizations makes me forget about it. But I do keep travelling to the US to give lectures. My papers get published in international magazines. I am happy.

PHOTO TOUR

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Sent for inspiration by Prof. PNN Iyer. Nobility is the greatest ability. The purpose of life is to lead a life of purpose.

Inconsistency & Looking

REUBENS

When eyes are open, one looks at the physical objects in one’s environment. One associates sound, odors, tastes and touch with these objects.

When eyes are closed, the physical objects and their associations go away, but mental visualization of them could still linger. There could also be pictures of such objects coming from memory, and from dreams. There may be thoughts, feelings, emotions, etc., associated with these pictures.

When one looks at the physical and mental objects, one usually becomes aware of things that grab attention because either they are unusual, or there is something not quite right about them. These are inconsistencies as detailed in Knowledge and Inconsistency.

Underlying each inconsistency there is something that is out of sight. Thus, it is always the inconsistency that guides looking and pulls it along.

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LOOKING

When one looks at an area of the mind, recognition takes place of what is there. This brings to light not only the mental objects, but also the inconsistencies present.

As one follows the inconsistencies, various assumptions, beliefs and unverified considerations start to surface. Hitherto, these things were being taken for granted, but as soon as one becomes aware of them, these assumptions and beliefs get revised and aligned with the background knowledge.

These inconsistencies are mere appearances. They disappear when viewed closely. For example, when you perceive a problem in its entirety it ceases to be a problem. When you recognize some confusion in its totality, it ceases to be confusion. Such appearances persist as long as the underlying reasons and assumptions remain hidden.

When looking is practiced, the appearance of problems, confusions, difficulties, etc., peel off like the layers of an onion.

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THOUGHTS & THINKING

When there is thinking going in the mind then observe it without participating or interfering with it. If any ideas pop up, then notice them, and acknowledge their presence. Recognize inconsistencies for what they are. Don’t do anything else. Let the mind unfold itself completely.

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FEELINGS & EMOTIONS

Feelings and emotions, which arise during looking, are flows that are jammed up. Simply dive into the center of that feeling or emotion, and experience it fully. When one looks at them closely, they out pour or discharge. If ideas, thoughts or inconsistencies come up during this process, treat them as in the previous sesction.

Past experiences of overwhelm may make one cautious about diving into unpleasant feelings and emotions. But that happens only when one digs into the mind to find the cause. The mind will never bring up something that is overwhelming or harmful, as long as you do not search for causes. Simply let the mind unfold itself naturally.

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SENSATIONS & EFFORT

The senses provide us with sensation. Effort is the sensation of pull and push. Sensations also act like jammed up flows. When looked at closely, they also out pour or discharge.

Look at sensations by diving into the center of them as above. Sensations may cause some physical discomfort. If such discomfort becomes too much you may change or adjust your body position. The uncomfortable intensity may lessen and eventually disappear as you persevere with mindfulness.

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DETACHMENT

Sometimes some thoughts, feelings, sensations, etc., continue to persist despite looking, and do not go away. Maybe a bit of distance or detachment is needed to view these mental objects thoroughly. This may be accomplished in either of the following two ways.

(1) Assign a location to the mental object (persistent thought, feeling, sensation, etc.). Pick a location that seems natural for that mental object. Then view the mental object at that location.

(2) Alternatively, make copies of the mental object (especially a picture), and place them all over the place. This will make you look at it repetitively but differently each time. Do this until detachment takes place.

Once the above is accomplished, the persistent mental objects may then dissolve into the background.

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The Mechanics of Looking

The practice of looking is described in The Basics of Looking. This essay expands upon some of the key aspects of Looking.

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Looking

Per Vipassana of Buddha, the definition of Looking is as follows:

Looking is observing things as they really are, not just as they seem to be.

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Looking with Eyes open

When one is looking with eyes open, one sees the physical objects. One also becomes aware of mental objects, which are evoked by the physical objects, such as, thoughts, feelings, and emotions. In looking, one does not suppress these mental objects. One observes them for what they are.

Looking includes the observation of mental objects. It does not exclude them.

For example, it is a common experience to have thoughts, labels, evaluations, opinions, etc., arise in the mind as one looks around at things in the room. 

To experience this point, go ahead and look around the room right now. Notice any thoughts that arise in the mind while looking at physical objects. For example, as one looks at a lamp, thoughts similar to the following, may arise.

  • “This is a lamp.”
  • “This is an expensive lamp.”
  • “I will never buy such an expensive lamp.”

In some meditation techniques the primary goal is to make one’s mind blank. However, this is not the goal of Looking. In the practice of Looking one does not suppress thoughts.

Looking does not attempt to clear the mind of thoughts, feelings, or emotions.

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Looking with Eyes closed

When one is looking with eyes closed, attention goes more to mental objects, and on the activity occurring among them. Observe wherever the attention takes you. Do not exclude anything.

Looking includes observation of activity among mental objects, such as, “thinking.”

As an observer, do not get involved with the activity taking place in the mind. Simply observe the activity for what it is.

Looking does not interfere with the activity of “thinking” that is going in the mind.

When one is judging one is imposing some pre-conceived standard. This colors the perception of what is really there. Do not judge. Let the mind align its considerations the way it wants to.

Looking does not cast any judgment on what is there.

Some meditation techniques practice concentration. Such concentration is not part of looking. Let the mind present whatever it wants to.

Looking observes whatever comes up. It does not demand concentration.

Past overwhelm can make one shy of looking at certain thoughts, feelings and emotions.  Such overwhelm occurs only when one digs into the mind. If one is  just there with whatever comes up, there is no overwhelm.

Looking is effortless. In looking there is no resistance toward what is there.

One looks, hoping to get resolution of something. However, expectations lead to visualizations, and that may color the perception of what is there. One then doesn’t see what is really there.

Looking does not expect any answer, result, realization, or phenomenon to occur.

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Summary

When one is not suppressing any thoughts or feelings, and is simply looking without being judgmental, then, in that moment, one is being totally honest with oneself. This is the basis of personal integrity.

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Glossary

Suppress
Origin: “to press down.” To suppress is to prevent the development, action, or expression of; restrain.

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